Can you hear this? Do you need me to turn it up?

This morning I got dumped. And I was okay with it, and I saw it coming. So why am I in tears now?
I got the TEXT and laughed. Why am I in tears now?
I knew it was going to end eventually. This is what I've been waiting for this whole time. So why am I in tears now?
He didn't talk to me all day yesterday, and the day before that, I was completely bitchy. It's not like I loved him. So why am I in tears now?
I was fine all day. Why am I in tears now?


Fact is, he was the best boyfriend I've ever had.
Honestly, I never wanted to start dating him in the first place.
Fact is, he's not like any other guy I know.
Honestly, I knew he didn't mean it, every time he told me he loved me.
Fact is, I've never been so happy, spending time with someone.
Honestly, I'm not that girl who lets people hurt her.
Fact is. He Hurt Me.

I can be fine. Around all those people, in school. I'm alone with my thoughts and completely miserable.
It can't help at all when he sends me a text. It doesn't help at all when he contradicts me. 


My confidence is at an all time low.  It's good to know he's honest enough to tell me that he broke up with me for another girl. Whether he realizes he told me that or not. I lie, and I say I'm okay. But I'm not okay.

Tell me I'm beautiful.

And here we go again,

With all the things we said

And not a minute spent

To think that we'd regret

So we just take it back,

These words and hold our breath

Forget, these words we swore we meant

I'll write you fast to let you know 

That I'm alright,

Can't say I'm sad to see you

Go, Cuz I'm not.

-Paramore

I may say it was your fault
Cause I know you could have done more

Oh you're so naive yet so

How could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart
Oh and your sweet and pretty face

-The Kooks