No matter how I might fight it, I'm a hopeless romantic. But the last year and maybe more have been spent realizing how stupid it is to make yourself fall in love, or to think you're in love, at least at this point in my life, and so on and so forth. I hate this realization. I want to be carelessly euphoric, and naive. Because I have an amazing person in my life, but I know it means nothing, and it's so hard to enjoy something you know is going to end. I do enjoy it. Plenty. Just not as much as I wish I did. Music isn't the same anymore. Lately, I just can't get into music like I used to. It doesn't make me feel the same. Because somewhere, sometime, someone told me that that was crap, and the pressure to be perfect is beginning to eat at me. Who Knew?
It seems like everything is fake. The people, some music, the food, the toys, EVERYTHING on TV.... People who I used to call my friends will have nothing to do with me anymore. And the biggest thing, when someone who I once considered my best friend, someone who hated the main of main stream, every preppy girl who ever walked past, and every preppy fad you could think of...... completely absorbed by everything she used to hate. Worst of all, that girl can NOT figure out how to cover her ENTIRE face with makeup, because people can still see that 1/2 inch all around your face you didn't get.
Anyways, I wrote this to complain about how the guy I'm with is completely ridiculous, but so sweet, and how I know that he's going to realize how much he doesn't mean anything he's ever said.
So yeah, that's that, and oh yeah, it's April Fool's Day..... Happy That......
Um, however you spell goodbye in Spanish.....
"Weighed Down With Words
Too, Over Dramatic
Tonight it's 'It can't get much worse'
Versus 'No one should ever feel like'"
"Weighed Down With Words
Too, Over Dramatic
Tonight it's 'It can't get much worse'
Versus 'No one should ever feel like'"
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